Saturday, January 30, 2010

My heart is aching..

My heart is aching for Sydney Grace. One of Sydney's favorite positions was to lay on my chest. It seemed to comfort her the best. The night before she passed, the only way she would sleep was for me to rock her in my rocking chair with her against my chest. I feel like part of my chest is missing. It feels so empty inside. I know that as time goes by, my heart will heal, but at this moment I can't see when that will be.

Please continue to pray for us,
Lindsey

27 comments:

  1. Bless your heart, I hope you will always be able to remember exactly how she felt, and how her little cheek felt against yours and how her little fuzzy hair felt against your cheek. She WAS such a special gift and in time I just feel you will have such a special gift that she left for you to share with others.She was pure love. She certainly has impacted my heart and my heart aches for you.

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  2. I wish I knew what to say, but I don't, so I will just pray.

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  3. PRAYERS ARE CONTINUED THROUGHOUT THIS DIFFICULT TIME.

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  4. so sorry for your lost, my prayers are with your family, she is now resting on Gods chest. Jo Ann Ogden, i ave no url address so i posted anonymous

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  5. Lindsey & Joel, My heart aches for your loss, and celebrates your strength. I have followed Sydney Grace's story since her birthday...she has touched my life. I hope you both find peace in the coming days, months, & years. Know that her life touched us all, made us hold our babies tighter, think of friends we have not seen in years, and shared prayers with complete strangers. It's an amazing thing your family has brought to us. Peace, Alane Basco-Yu

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  6. im praying for you and your family mrs fodrie, im praying everyday.

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  7. My heart aches for you, Lindsey......With my first pregnancy, 16 years ago, I was expecting twins and at 22 weeks we found out one of our girls, Leslie Morgan had not survived. At 31 weeks, I delivered our precious Krista, weighing 2lbs 13ozs and a stillborn. My heart ached for a very long time and I cried myself to sleep for about a year. While I don't know exactly how you feel, I know the pain of losing a child......My prayers continue to be with you!!

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  8. After reading the blog updates, here I sit with tears rolling down my cheeks as I feel sorrow mixed with joy... your (AND our) precious time with Sydney Grace was a miracle. You will all be a part of my daily thoughts and prayers, and although I cannot imagine what your emptiness feels like, know that you are not alone in this next chapter of your family's life... we are all here with you.

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  9. My prayers are with you and your family. She was a beautiful child of God and now she is one of his lil' angels. How special that is to have her looking down on all of you. I just hope that God will strenghten all of you during this difficult time. Rebecca Morton SC

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  10. Definitely will continue to pray for you. God, wrap your arms around Lindsey, and comfort her. Even with the hope of seeing Sydney again one day, the grief of losing her sweet little girl and the feeling of missing a part of her is a lot to bear. I pray that you will fill her days with happy memories of Sydney, with thoughts of the miracle she was, and with hope for the future. Give her peace and show her what her ministry has meant to others. Thank you in Jesus name. Amen.

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  11. You will never stop missing your little angel..I lost my 1st daughter...she died right before birth..I Have Never stopped missing her though as the years have passed ( 30) it has gotten easier..will always be in a special spot in your heart.FOREVER!

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  12. Lindsey,
    No words will bring you comfort at this time. May you find some comfort in knowing that God is holding Sydney Grace for you until you meet again. Sydney Grace brought joy to many people in her 20 days.She had more than 7,000 people praying for her on JUST ON Facebook. God had a purpose for her and she fulfilled His purpose.
    I continue to keep you and our family in all of my prayers. Please remember...
    The will of God will never lead you,
    Where the grace of God cannot keep you.
    In His love and praying always for you,
    Ginger Moore, New Bern, NC

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  13. I don't know you, but I feel your pain all the way across the country in Cincinnati, Ohio. You are blessed to have such strength and wisdom to see this through God's eyes. Just know that what you're feeling right now is human pain. Allow yourself to feel it as fully as you can, then let it go when you're ready. God won't rush you or shake His head in disgust as He watches you cry, as He's crying right along with you. Thank you for sharing your story. I'll pray for you and your family tonight as you ache.

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  14. It's been 3+ months since Johanna left us and there are more moments than not where I can feel her in my arms. I hope this feeling never goes away. We're praying for your family.

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  15. Your heart will heal as time goes by,but it will have the constant imprint if Sydney Grace upon it. My prayers continue for you. Love from Heavenly Father will help heal. Patti Jane

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  16. Sweet Lindsey ~

    Sydney Grace is beautiful! I have a sweet baby girl in Heaven, too. Her name is Reese, and she went to Heaven when she was two days old August 13, 2009.

    My heart breaks for you because I know your pain. Please go easy on yourself. Feel whatever you need to feel. I pray you feel GOD's comfort every second of every day. He will slowly begin to fill the empty spaces in your heart with His grace and healing.

    Grieve hard for your precious little girl.

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  17. I can't imagine the pain you are going through right now. My heart aches for you! I will definitely continue to pray for you and your family. Your precious angel touched my heart in undescribeable ways!

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  18. Thank you for sharing your blogs with us. We pray that God will wrap his loving arms around you through this most difficult time. Also, thank you for sharing your Sydney Grace with all of us. She touched us in a way that was truly amazing. Will continue to pray for you in the days ahead.

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  19. Oh Lindsey I will continue to pray for you. I can't imagine what you are feeling at this moment. Sydney touched my heart in a way I can never explain and taught me so many lessons. Although it hurts right now I hope you never forget what it felt like to hold her on your chest. Wow what a wonderful woman and mother you are. I hope I am half the mother you are. I will continue to pray for you and you sweet husband and son. I hope you can feel our Savior holding you during this time and always

    With Love,
    Kara, Fletcher, NC

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  20. As a mother who also lost a child, know that it will be easier in time. You must trust that she is now in God's hands and He knows what is best for all children. Healing is hard, and I won't lie, there are days that will be difficult, but you will survive and it will get easier in time. God Bless you and Sydney Grace. Always thinking of you...Sherri Mitchell

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  21. My heart aches for you and your family. We will keep you in our prayers.

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  22. Praying and crying here im freezing Ohio for your family. The pain of loosing a child is hard but knowing the miracle that they are in our lives is priceless. Our miracle baby Mackenzie left our arms 3 years, 7 months, and 13 days ago. The heartache is better but I have never stopped missing her.

    Praying...........

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  23. Oh Im praying for you so much!!!! I cnat say anything to comfort you, wish that we could all give you a hug, I cant imagine how empty your arms fill right now. IM praying for you
    TIffany in TN

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  24. Lindsey, I can't imagine what you are going through, but I couldn't have children and that was one the biggest heartaches I ever had. Please be thankful for the time you had with Sydney Grace and I will be praying for you. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us all.

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  25. we wish we could just give you a hug. where praying

    Emily T.C.
    Hannah M.

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  26. I am so glad that today has been a better day. I can't imagine what you have been through.Time will heal some things and they will get better.But you will always have in your heart a special place for Sidney Grace.We all feel like she was a part of our lives for her short time on this earth.For one thing we saw the love for her and your family revealed from all over the United States.Many of us spent time on our knees praying for her and your family.I Know that she is one of the sweetest little angels in heaven. I will continue to pray for you and yours .

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